i seemed to be losing myself turning into something DIFFERENT i'll never be the same the old me seemed to be destroyed when the new came alive in me it's damn obvious to me i turned into someone who- * chiong for studies * ignored frenship probs * dun play so much * super sacastic * help others * super nice * lurve him * lurve my frens * cherish in the past, i wan to cherish wanna learn to love love everyone now, i've done it yet i dun feel nice i dunnoe maybe not myself le lor lastly, i wanna slim down!!!! i'm getting super fat =P

mr chew is NICE :)) he told us things which he shldnt so guys out there, dun blog bad things on ur teachers they r all tracking down and there'll be punishments so dun do it esp for tpss ppl ivan kena by him haha b'cos of that pic.. luckily i never say anything bad i'm always nice no doubt on that i feeling so down i fail my eng which means no jc even if i wan to no good course in poly to expect that standard for eoy wad can i do? fail again sure de i mus study but i dunnoe how to i realli wish i can do it home life still the same super noisy i rather not go home i hate it alot i rather do self-study somewhere else not at home shld be alrite le p/s: darrell, thanks for those encouragements.. i will study hard for my eoy exams. i wont gu fu ni yi pian hao xin. =D hope u dun stress urself too much on ur assignments.. rest well k?

today get back my ss paper.. quite happy lorr.. the marks.. hehe.19/25 wor... budden not happi.. b'cos never study ma...onli study 2nd que...and den got moderation...fuck la...actually is 22 de lorr today oso oral.. worst lorr.. c ms leong.. wad can be worst than that... b'cos yasmin never come.. den ms leong keep promting me.. den she keep saying all my wrong words.. sians i paly wif mdm ho's bag today.. hehe.. den b'cum typical aunty.. den i imitate her.. was super funni.. actually is b'cos i decided to be nice and helped her take her things. i'm nice.. hehe. den b4 oral oso got helped her.. den i say alot of things to her.. den she dunnoe wad den say "i kick u den u noe ar" den i replied cheekily la.. i said "u sure anot? later no one to help u liao ar" den she bo bian lorr.. den luff...

i hate home; i hate my parents. they are so irriating and i wont have peace the moment my sis gets home sians rudely awake each night hearing shouts and scoldings i'm getting real irriated i'm quite used to it le lor happened like every night y cant my sis change for the better y does she likes to do things wrongly y she's so different from me and jie no matta wad, she's my sis i cant leave her alone i cant let wad my father wans to do send her away but wad can i do i dunnoe lor i might nid some counselling i nid someone to talk to urgently luckily my phone wasnt confiscated hehe happpi got back my essay.. wasnt veri nice cos all in red some sort of rubbish lor tink darrell had a sad time marking them lots of errors and written out of point nvm i'll do better the next time so wad even if it's mark stircter by u maybe my 'o' paper will be beside rgs or some high and mighty sch they have higher standard ma went to watch one more chance nice show but lots of vulgarities veri touching lorr i did cry =X and it was funni everyone was laughing alot sch ends at 2 lorr den the show was at 4.3o dad and mum didnt noe maybe they cant be bothered le la i jus say sch lor den also bo bian la went to soup kitchen to eat abt $24 a person expensive rite cos total is $117

a great celebrating for me!!!! i passed chemistry!!! y that mr lai so idiotic.. put all those passes behind.. i thot i fail badly lor.. haiyoyo.. nvm.. i still pass so alrite lor.. hehes. ^.^ stupid geo common test coming up.. got so much to rmb.. all the plates techonics.. volcanos, fold mountains, earthquacks, tsunami and blah blah... i cant slack! exams are around the corner.. if u wanna care abt all those ties, den i suggest u better give up.. i wont care and dun wan to care about them. stupid kailiang. stop commenting on my msn nick la..

i had tis bloody flu [again] and i was feeling quite pissed off la.. i practically wasnt realli listening to wad shi lao shi was saying thruout the whole saying.. i practically sleep thru the cme period.. and mind u, it's not the normal sleep-in-class where ppl call will make up de.. is realli in my dreamland.. i was realli sick la.. but in pe like alrite le.. maybe b'cos is my fave subj la.. can play.. then was realli alrite le lor.. thanks JUVONE :)

hey guys out there.. wad's ur views on lesbians and gays? i've been thinking rather hard. wad if that person is someone from ur family; ur blood related person; someone u truely love and respect?

ok. i was feeling like wtf lorr.. i have dis bloody virus in me... i was coughing and sneezing thruout physics, social studies and amath! i guess all those beside me was feeling so irrating... oops... sorry. it's fun to see me in that way.. that time, i wanted to get drenched in the rain.. so can get sick.. hahas. it was a failed attempt la.. cos in the end oso never get sick.. sians... den now, never get drenched.. oso got sick.. haiyo.. eoy coming le.. i realli dun wanna to sick.. dun wanna skip lesson (ha! stop laughing la! i very guai de lehx..) got back my emath common test liao.. the result is still alrite la.. budden is like not my expectations lor.. i thot i can get like 35/4o lorr.. den now is onli 3o/4o lor.. so the difference 1o% marks... arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! so angry lorr.. cos the 5marks is all the careless questions lorr.. i feel so stupid.. i cant even do all those easy questions. wad a failure i'm.

super tired. so sleep like a log last night.. i was angry [again] over my sista la.. i was so tired then i go and sleep.. it was 12midnight le.. den she say she wan to play.. for 1o minutes.. den i was like.. errr.. ok la.. jus 1o min.. den after that i realli chiong to sleep.. so didnt wait fer her le.. den have such a nice sleep lor.. den i was rudely woke up at dunnoe 1am or 2am la.. so angry.. all b'cos my sister was using the phone.. and it was abt 1 or 2am.. so late liao lorr.. and she was talking.. den my parents start to scold.. and blah blah.. as if is my prob..

tis morning then realised it was MINE fault. u noe y? b'cos i was that i didnt "take care" of her and to allow her to use the phone. it doesnt concern me at all so y was i involved? do they noe that? do they even care about wad i was feeling? do they even noe wad i'm thinking. i doubt they even care about me. all attention was on her. [i'm not trying to be jealous la] but i was blamed even for something i did not even do.

he sms me late at night.. ok, i was surprised and in a way happy. hmm. so glad to know u didnt ignored me.. i thot u realli did ignore me. thanks fer everything. we chated till the midnight. dat's the reason y i was online till that time. and finally i was super tired.. so sms a good nite msg then sleep le lorr.. i hope that the rumour will stop. soon.

i chiong maple since i woke up. so long didnt play liao lorr.. 3 months; 17 days. goodness noes y. maybe i jus sort of wanting to get good grades for my common tests? hope so. jerry took away almost everything in there. all the ores, scrolls, portions and dressing. haiyo.. nvm.

daniel was NICE :))

kris la

super tired. so sleep like a log last night.. i was angry [again] over my sista la.. i was so tired then i go and sleep.. it was 12midnight le.. den she say she wan to play.. for 1o minutes.. den i was like.. errr.. ok la.. jus 1o min.. den after that i realli chiong to sleep.. so didnt wait fer her le.. den have such a nice sleep lor.. den i was rudely woke up at dunnoe 1am or 2am la.. so angry.. all b'cos my sister was using the phone.. and it was abt 1 or 2am.. so late liao lorr.. and she was talking.. den my parents start to scold.. and blah blah.. as if is my prob..

tis morning then realised it was MINE fault. u noe y? b'cos i was that i didnt "take care" of her and to allow her to use the phone. it doesnt concern me at all so y was i involved? do they noe that? do they even care about wad i was feeling? do they even noe wad i'm thinking. i doubt they even care about me. all attention was on her. [i'm not trying to be jealous la] but i was blamed even for something i did not even do.

he sms me late at night.. ok, i was surprised and in a way happy. hmm. so glad to know u didnt ignored me.. i thot u realli did ignore me. thanks fer everything. we chated till the midnight. dat's the reason y i was online till that time. and finally i was super tired.. so sms a good nite msg then sleep le lorr.. i hope that the rumour will stop. soon.

i chiong maple since i woke up. so long didnt play liao lorr.. 3 months; 17 days. goodness noes y. maybe i jus sort of wanting to get good grades for my common tests? hope so. jerry took away almost everything in there. all the ores, scrolls, portions and dressing. haiyo.. nvm.

daniel was NICE :))

common tests

@#$^*&@#$^* feel super pissed off at home. cant even have a minium peace at home.. my parents at there kpkb at my sis's grade.. so wtf has it got to do wif me? so angry lor.. is like they keep repeating all those stuffs.. dun they ever get irriated or sian about wad they are saying. i simply dun understand wad they are thinking. all i wan is jus to have peace and harmony at home lor.. no scoldings and shoutings. one day i shall get out of this house man. i'll. when i grow up. wadever. common tests have jus ended. i dun tink i do very well.. esp for my ss paper... cos i didnt noe how to study for the chapt 6.. so jus forsake that chapt.. ytd chem i feel was quite easy as compared to other chem tests la.. but it's still quite difficult. today's emath was quite a disaster.. i completely forgot to use the cosine rule.. and i wasted too much time on one of the question which has abt 5 sub questions and all is 1mark each.. i practically turn my test script 36o degrees to know wad is an angle. it's completely dumb man. i supposed anyone will lol when they c me doing that.. P/S: i tink i noe who is the one who uses the name as paasserby and some1 from ur class. i've expected it was u.. but i dun wanna comment. i supposed it's best for u to come up and explain to me. i dun have to be in public or wad. jus an sms will do.

haha.

i dunnoe leh today feel so damn rejected and being avoided. i dun wanna say alot on tis.. but somehow i feel that u r avoiding me alot.. self constrain. i thot i am the one who can realli make u smile. yet i realised i'm not. maybe i'm jealous wif u 2 the relationship or wad ba.. nvm. jus hope to c u achieving ur goals. den all this will be worth it. u = to pri sch guy? maybe. but seeing that u like her, i'm in no position to comment. LET GO OF UR WINGS and SOAR HIGH. i'll jus be the clouds; always there waiting for ur existance. listening to "dui mian de nui hai kan guo lai" memories all come back~ i still miss u after all this years. having to c u on teachers' day realli makes me smile and it's enough for me. happiness arent short for me cos all i nid is those happy moments u have brought to me. CONTENTED* all i nid is ur smile too. i jus have tis special feeling when i c u.. hahas. maybe is jus someone who will be tolerate for everything i'm doing. u will forever be in me. STAY HAPPY =) [i noe u will never come across this blog so it's alrite =P]

honey

jus one more paper to the end of the common test. [hang in there man] the whole day was super shitty for me.. totally in no mood to study. maybe b'cos i was sitting in the back.. haha. super bad habit.. i wanted to sleep in physics lesson de lor.. den honey changed place wif me.. so didnt dare to slp.. to close to the front.. and mdm lim sure can c de.. however in the end, i jus took her chair and sit wif her.. i wasnt realli paying attention to wad mdm lim was saying about the light.. i dunnoe.. i feel kind of "brain dead" den honey helped me draw for the diagram.. we talk alot.. and they are.. quite confidential la.. y shld u be so kpo to noe?? hahas. lols. jkjk. continute on pls. chem was worst.. i was talking throughout the whole hour.. i realli can talk.. hahas. i realised she was so shag.. i kind of understand wad she's going thru.. [at least i hope i do] honey, i realli hope to fen dan ur problems.. but i dunnoe how to go about doing that lor.. i dun deny that i agreed to wad u have said.. haiyo.. no matter wad honey, dun ever keep things to urself. tell me ok? i dun promise to make u smile when u r sad. but i can promise u one thing, i wont ever leave u alone unless u wan me to get lost.. <3 take cares. actually today was to mit mr d de lor.. wanted to asked abt the emath things.. haha. but nvm le.. cos mdm ho re teach the things le.. :) i've completed my essay as well *big big smile* exactly 5oo words.. no more, no less.. great~ cos from 8o7 words to 5oo.. hahas. so happy. =) after 6 days le.. yet my hand still hurt.. nvm. i jus accept the fact esther is super in love wif me =P cant deny that.. hahas. despite having the rub by u in the void deck and by cindy's in class, it was a miracle that i survived :P it still hurts.. hope it heal soon =)

darrell.

common test this week. my results shld be like shit. hope i can pass.. if not i dun nid to go home liao. mum's goanna kill me if i fail any subj.. the ss paper today is realli tough.. maybe b'cos i jus focus on chapt 5.. cos i dunnoe wad to study for chapt 6.. so i jus dun study for that lor.. darrell (it seems so rude.. ha!) i dunnoe if u ever will pass by this entry anot.. but i decided to pen down my thots.. i realli disagree to say that the meeting is creating all those trouble.. cos it's realli not.. so long if jonathan keeps his mouth shut i guess all this doesnt matter. even if he wans to say den let it be. i'm quite used to being accused, having all those rumours around me. so i dun realli care. ha! i dunnoe wad u are thinking.. so i decided not to tink lor.. maybe u dun like them.. so it's alrite that we keep in contact thru email.. but i realli enjoy that day.. haha!!! i understand the math much better.. i'll do well in tis common test de kkz? it's a promise =)) dun tink yy la.. lols. i might hand in late for my essay.. i haven complete them.. sorry la.. too lazy to type them.. and my com got tis stupid virus which almost destroy my essay... =(

i'm never kind. jus too bad. jon's words realli makes me thinks hard that day. i feel so long ting is happy, everything is worth doing it.. i mean.. wad's frens ferr.. i found out my weakest point: i care too much in some unneccessary stuffs like frenship prob. i do some silly and super childish things and yet i find them meaningful. now i realised wad wrongs i've been doing all this while. it's like i'm contributing to class stuffs; not wanting credits and stuffs yet after all that, when there is error, it's owaz my fault. but when everything goes smoothly, who was the one who ever questions and asks.. "whose's work is tis?" never. i realli sit down and reflect.. does all tis worth it anot? i seriously think they arent. so, i've decided.. no class comm matters next yr.. jus concentrate in my 'o'.. even if elected, i'll step down. no way for me to do that anymore. i've enughh of it tis yr. humph! jon's words realli shocked me lorr.. is like i'll never expect him to say tis.. and it's kinda surprising.. realli. jon, i'll promise u not to give a damn on her.. and i'll stay happy cos all tis arent worth it. =D -smiles + grins-

CT.

the common test starts from today and i'm feeling so nervous. mum's order: no failing of any subjects. all the subject tested arent so fun.. superly sians. think i'll die soon.. ha! jonathan didnt keep his promise lorr.. is like he promise not to say anything on mr d before.. yet he told bk and was scolded by me.. den today oso lor.. so angry! he said it so loudly and ch and honey heard it. so angry! is like i dun even intend to say anything on it and he keeps blabbering on and on.. he didnt keep his promise twice!!!! we had to do the interview on the books we had read throughout the holis. super boring.. cos not alot of ppl are reading those books.. esp those taking "to kill a mocking bird".. one example would be me.. haha. lols. i did intend to read.. but after reading like 2o pages i simply can go to sleep.. it was worst than literature text man.. (thou it is one) hope the interview goes well.. the blue black still hurts as much :(

bbq.

went to class bbq ytd. maybe it was fun. maybe it wasnt. i went there.. jus merely to keep my promise. to go lor. den i jus went. mit ben kok and jon first.. den after that mit cindy at bedok inter.. we took a cab there and kor pay money.. haha. no one wanted to pay back.. ^.^ go there den realised got nobody.. thot got alot of ppl liao.. den honey was like saying.. she asked us to mit at 1.3o then she wasnt here.. den i was like ya lor.. den jonathan say i zhen dui here. so angry lor.. is like i didnt. i swear i didnt. hafiz brought along his guitar.. and never bring script =X his guitar's state was pathetic lorr.. he didnt cut off the excess strings.. look so funni. haha. honey and i went to play in the water.. haha. 1/2 submerge in water.. no one wanted to go lorr.. super sian. spoilt sport. we jus went there to play.. haha. after that somehow i feel so shit when i c the both of them. i'm not jealous.. jus some thinkings came into me. i recalled all those happy times which i had.. i sat down on one of the big rock facing the sea. i recalled those happy times. den i feel so sad.. realli sad lor.. those times we shared.. so many ppl came up to me and asked me to go and join in the bbq.. den jonathan came up to me, esther oso.. esp esp thx to u all.. they are onli the 2 ppl which i can let go all my thots; my words and my feelings. i talk to jon more.. we shared about our problems.. now is like i realli feel so much better.. realli thanks. now is like i realii feel alrite liao lorr.. i'm not thinking anymore on any problems le. last night i realli sleep well and i didnt think about the problems which i faced. i feel so much better alot.. i feel so much happier.. den after that girls was throw into the sea by hafiz and ivan.. :( i was thrown in alot of times.. so sad.. me, cindy, esther was thrown in.. think no more liao lor.. sians. i was kind to hold ivan back to the shore lorr.. den he pushed me down again.. twice lorr.. sians. =X after that me, esther and jonathan was sitting back at the same rock where i sit in the afternoon (which i tink i sat there for 3hours) den we talk again.. haha. after that was like about 1o plus liao lorr.. den we took a cab to jon's home.. den we walked to a bus stop to take 28.. it was super long lor.. den we saw a 7-11.. we rushed in to buy food.. like some hungry ghosts. ha! den we took the bus.. it was 12 plus when i reached home cum a fast bath.. super tired after that and i sleep almost immediately.. (1st night when i didnt tink of any problems.. yay!) den i woke up at 11 today lorr.. like a pig.. i esther love me!!! the bite shows. haha. the blue black mark is where she bites me. -where is my essay question mr d? -i'm trying not to tink about any problems right now. jus wanna forget everything. -thank you jonathan and esther -thanks kor for the cab. hehes. it's FOC k? (p.s) i didnt have anymore peace the moment kris came back home. i feel to get out of my house rite at this moment. my parents r super noisy rite at tis moment. it doesnt concern me lor den they scold scold scold.. irriating to my ears. now daddy wanted to find everything around kris and to find the guy who was wif her. he even wanted to go find her form teacher.. and noe who is it or else will transfer her to another sch lorr. super noisy. shut up la. i noe it's rude la.. budden they are realli noisy.. contributing to the noise pollution.

east coast. u again.

i was to go to the interchange all alone. w/o anyone going wif me :( miting those irriating 2 guys to go east coast.. ha! wondering if i still can get those peace.. sians. have to go on at 1o.3o liao lor.. or else no more outings for me =X sian 1/2 i thot i'll be a fun day.. how cum u get sick??? sianssss alot.. den i'll b'cum so much of a loner liao. i get pics for u to c.. hehe. *evil grins to 3e3* hope everything for smoothly. if she wans to go there kpkb den i'll not show mercy either (twin, if dat way hor.. den i suppose jus too bad. cos i wont allow anyone who refused to do anything and at there complain all those stuffs) hope to have fun :) not quarrels :( ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* i thot things can be how i wan yet time and time i realised things dat reallis saddens me i dun wanna comment i dun wanna talk abt it if u still choose to like her den go ahead y do u still have to care about me? do u ever realise what my feelings are towards u? do u even care what i do? perphas i didnt cherish u perphas i've attitude prob perphas i'm not intellegent perphas i'm never nice perphas i'm not as sociable perphas i'm never nice perphas i'm too rough perphas i'm too fierce ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* but now it doesnt matter if u love her den go ahead dun ever come back again. if u wanna love me den love me for who i'm and not who i'm not

simple plan

Song: Welcome To My Life Artist: Simple Plan Do you ever feel like breaking down? Do you ever feel out of place? Like somehow you just don't belong And no one understands you Do you ever wanna runaway? Do you lock yourself in your room? With the radio on turned up so loud That no one hears you screaming No you don't know what it's like When nothing feels all right You don't know what it's like To be like me To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked when you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like Welcome to my life Do you wanna be somebody else? Are you sick of feeling so left out? Are you desperate to find something more? Before your life is over Are you stuck inside a world you hate? Are you sick of everyone around? With their big fake smiles and stupid lies While deep inside you're bleeding No you don't know what it's like When nothing feels all right You don't know what it's like To be like me To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked when you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like Welcome to my life No one ever lied straight to your face No one ever stabbed you in the back You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay Everybody always gave you what you wanted Never had to work it was always there You don't know what it's like, what it's like To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked when you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like (what it's like) To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked when you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like Welcome to my life Welcome to my life Welcome to my life will i ever be wad i used to be? *sighs* everything now seems to be so f* up and everything.. i'm no longer the evelyn i used to be. the weak, the quiet me. i dunnoe which wan i'm now. i'm totally confused. everything is my fault. and still it is. and never will it be urs. fine. i've had enuff of it. i'm still the lonely gal sitting inside the bus i may seem like starring at those tress, those roads, those bus stops yet it wasnt; i was jus staring into space wondering y my life can be so f* up; y i've to land in tis world the place full of sufferings and never c happiness yet all tis times my eyes are so watery y i can never be strong? y i'm owaz so frail? y do i have to cry so easily? i hate myself for all tis my mood seems so downhill, everything seems so f* up. w/o anyone to talk to. i feel so bottled up. where are those "so-called" friends? i dun seem to be able to tell them all my feelings and thots. i used to be so contented. ever since u entered and invade my life, i never find anymore peace. jus unhappiness and anger. y cant u be like all other frens i'm having?

field trip

after the long walk today, i felt super tired and i almost die from walking.. actually it wasnt bad walking wan.. however, we have got to walk up slope.. den down slope.. was super tired lorr.. i was super noisy thru out the whole thing.. talk; luff and joke lyk sum siao cha bo.. hais. sians. hope to be the quiet de me lorr.. super sians. i'm looking forward for the next yr's fieldtrip to bintan!!!! hope that it's nice!! yingyun, benkok, simin, ivan, chinhui and i all went to esther's house.. hahas. to discuss about the games and all those stuffs for the bbq.. and to play maple cum watch a show~ it's a nice and tired day.. having a tuition later.. sians.. i shld be nice to write shawn a nice testimonal since he wrote to me.. ha! slacking attitude`

bbq, mr d

i was super tired. i dunnoe. all thanks to the bbq and having our dear chair who didnt wanted to do anything. so fantastic. i dun even nid to elaborate. all class com members shld noe. wad a great joke it is. w/o doing anything and claiming credits and saying NO ONE doing it. so be it. yea yea. be angry or wadever u wan. cos i wont even care. i've become much stronger emotionally. all thanks to u. and.. stop saying is others spread rumours cos i noe it's not. all tis is wad i c and wad i feel. no one even has the right to interfere wif all tis. including u. stop blaming others wad has happened. asked urself wad's wrong. i asked myself too much y it happened. and i've came up wif a decision: i absolutely did nothing wrong and i shldnt have tis ending. asked urself. did i ever give u chance? i dare to say i did. asked urself again. how much chances have i given? i dare to say tis again. it's almost on and on. i thot u deserve all tis chances. i tink u deserve a chance as we used to be frens; u are the chair and i respect u for that. yet, wad i c is that u are not repedent and that u never cherish all those. thus, chang tong bu ru duan tong. so, it's better that u get out. out of my life. scram. and never come back. so jus leave me alone in my world. i'm contented wif all i shld all except for u to get out of my life. wad i hated abt u: (the way when u...) *tink u are great *shouted at people who didnt do anything wrong *start to blame ppl *backstabbed ppl *do things *pushes the blame to others *badmouth ppl *claim all credits when u didnt go anything *pretended to be helpful when u arent i simply hate everything around u to (.")(",): i regretted having agreeing to wad u've said. i thot i'll be able to let her go; have mercy on her. yet, i suppose i shld asked her to be mercy to me instead. how much hurts, pains and tears i had ferr her. no one understand. and i thot u did. but. no. u didnt. nvm. one thing i realli wanna thank u.. realli. ferr making me strong; having the courage to do those things. thank you ferr all tis care and concern towards me all tis while. (est-her: u understand rite? hope u do) talking to d last nite. well, dat's wad he told me to call him. ha! i sent him my progress report.. and it's so funni.. and is like he saw my a and e math marks.. he started asking abt the super great difference in my marks.. ha! den asked me to do smt to my emath, phys and chi. haha~ den he suggested to tutor my studies.. so nice of him~ FOC. dat's wad he say.. so nice hor..we crap so much.. so.. next time i wont be free on thurs le.. so sorry guys~ den i oso asked abt amy.. so was like old colleagues.. den i make the scastastic remark.. uh-oh. HE'S NICE. HE IS. ha! :)

holis. report slips.

holidays have jus arrived.. mixed feelings all abt.. dunno to feel great, fun or is it moody and sian. jus the first sunday and i feel so damn bored. *yawn* nobody at home. jus me me and me. daddy go ah di's hse, mummy go work, jie go fren's hse do project and kris go tuition. and i'm all alone at home. super sian. decided to watch on some vcds at home which i didnt managed to watch all tis while.. heh heh. like elf, brother bear, monster and dumplings. seems like i've grown to be more childlike. hehe. watching all those vcds. it's alrite. i noe u r luffing ur heads off looking thru tis entry. nvm. got back my progress slip. so disappointed wif my grades. esp for my chinese. from an A1 i drop.. not 1 or 2 grades.. but 7 grades. a min of 35 marks gone. all thanks to the moe. wif the new format. i've to pull up my socks. i've got to do dat. my geo.. onli a JUS pass. 5o marks. hais. feel so sorry towards mdm sim~ i realli did wanna get good grades for my geo.. cos i noe i cant do well in my combined humanities.. my emath marks was worst.. jus a mere pass. a 53. mdm ho was like nagging me:"wei-qi, i realised ur amath not bad arh.. but wad happened to ur emath??" dat's wad she said when we was walking towards sch one day.. so embrassing =( overall, it's jus alrite. however.. i feel that dere are more improvements to be made.. i've improved for most of my subjects =D yea! my results for progress report.. (top: term 1, bottom: term 3) I DID IMPROVED! y cant mummy understand how much i've been studying? how come no one did realise i did study, i did work hard? when mummy see my chinese marks, den she scold me and compared wif jie's marks.. and wad abt daddy? all he did was to compared my physics marks wif jie jie. everyone onli noe how to compare my poor subjects wif others. cant they compared my better marks? did anyone say" wow! u've a great improvement for.." or "u are so good in.."? no. no one did dat. no one seems to understand how i'm feeling. no one seems to care wad i'm doing, how i feel about all tis. in the past, u will be there. helping me; consoling me. but where can i find someone like u? i seems to have lost u since time slipped away. i deperately nid someone to tok to.